Adding in my two cents...I'm happy. Like, blissfully so. Mostly because after seven months of watching my husband and family struggle through hell, it's finally almost over. My husband was diagnosed with hodgkin's lymphoma in October. Luckily, we caught it early, but cancer is still cancer, and super, super scary. For the past six months he has been undergoing chemotherapy- which is possibly the worst thing I've ever seen anyone go through. He's a fucking soldier. I've never seen anyone struggle to hold their everyday life together the way he did.
In six months of treatment he missed one day of work. He worked a full 45 hour work week through intense nausea, fatigue, and over all crummy side effects. He lost his hair, a bunch of weight, but still struggled through it all to be the husband, father, and provider that he always promised to be when we spoke our wedding vows.
Two weeks ago, he had his last chemo treatment, went in for check up scans and found out that he is officially cancer free! So, another week of radiation treatments and he's done. Hopefully, he'll never have to go through this again, but hey, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it...for now, I'll take my bliss where ever I can find it.
When I'm not I just smile to myself and look at the sky and it's hard not to become happy Or if I'm trapped in a room with no windows I think of the people who I love and who love me. I'm usually happy. Anger and sadness pass.
I put no. This was an in the moment thing. I was not going to put an altogether because I believe that anyone that thought about it all together were going to put "i dont know" which did not happen, by reading the comments. If it is true that people feel how they want to feel", I guess I just generally do not want to feel happy.. But I do not believe this. I let the water take me where it wishes, (people being the water) and that is probably bad, but I don't care. My good points come from only one thing: my boyfriend. Bad: I am loosing my best friend, easily, I haven't seen my boyfriend in a while and it kind of sucks, and I am slipping in school. Just the way I am makes me normally an easily swayed person. My overall thoughts do make it that I am not happy.
Currently? Not so much- I just got a filling on a tooth and my face is numb. It's hard to talk and I can't eat for another half-hour D: But that's more annoying than sad.
I'm..eh. I have a degree in illustration, but I cant get jobs- I have a huge amount of school debt- and I did get what they consider a "full ride" but you still have to cover living arrangements and such.. living in a lovely place with a loverly fiance, but still getting over a traumatic hospital visit with him. Kind of just...dealing..
I'm..eh. I have a degree in illustration, but I cant get jobs- I have a huge amount of school debt- and I did get what they consider a "full ride" but you still have to cover living arrangements and such.. living in a lovely place with a loverly fiance, but still getting over a traumatic hospital visit with him. Kind of just...dealing..
Of course, not everything is perfect, and sometimes I'm sad, but on average... I have fantastic friends and great family, and the whole life is ahead! I just have to pass my exams first. xd (they will have the final word in my future way of life.)
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In six months of treatment he missed one day of work. He worked a full 45 hour work week through intense nausea, fatigue, and over all crummy side effects. He lost his hair, a bunch of weight, but still struggled through it all to be the husband, father, and provider that he always promised to be when we spoke our wedding vows.
Two weeks ago, he had his last chemo treatment, went in for check up scans and found out that he is officially cancer free! So, another week of radiation treatments and he's done. Hopefully, he'll never have to go through this again, but hey, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it...for now, I'll take my bliss where ever I can find it.
I'm usually happy. Anger and sadness pass.
This was an in the moment thing. I was not going to put an altogether because I believe that anyone that thought about it all together were going to put "i dont know" which did not happen, by reading the comments. If it is true that people feel how they want to feel", I guess I just generally do not want to feel happy.. But I do not believe this. I let the water take me where it wishes, (people being the water) and that is probably bad, but I don't care. My good points come from only one thing: my boyfriend. Bad: I am loosing my best friend, easily, I haven't seen my boyfriend in a while and it kind of sucks, and I am slipping in school. Just the way I am makes me normally an easily swayed person. My overall thoughts do make it that I am not happy.
my life just started
Currently? Not so much- I just got a filling on a tooth and my face is numb. It's hard to talk and I can't eat for another half-hour D: But that's more annoying than sad.
I have a degree in illustration, but I cant get jobs-
I have a huge amount of school debt- and I did get what they consider a "full ride" but you still have to cover living arrangements and such..
living in a lovely place with a loverly fiance, but still getting over a traumatic hospital visit with him.
Kind of just...dealing..
I have a degree in illustration, but I cant get jobs-
I have a huge amount of school debt- and I did get what they consider a "full ride" but you still have to cover living arrangements and such..
living in a lovely place with a loverly fiance, but still getting over a traumatic hospital visit with him.
Kind of just...dealing..
Of course, not everything is perfect, and sometimes I'm sad, but on average... I have fantastic friends and great family, and the whole life is ahead!
I just have to pass my exams first. xd
(they will have the final word in my future way of life.)